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Perspective

Posted by on May 4, 2010 in Uncategorized | 38 comments

My friend Sally said to me today that sometimes the Universe has a way of giving you exactly what you need, just at the time you need it.

Last weekend was one of those times.

I’m not going to tell you all about it just yet. Our trip to Tenby and the beautiful resort by the sea that we stayed at there was on behalf of havealovelytime.com and I’m be busy writing a post that will appear there in the next few days and that will fill you in all the details.

So for now you will just have to know that it was perfect, and healing, and restorative in a way even I wasn’t really expecting.

I had a lot of time to think over the weekend. It was a real breathing space, a big deep breath out that I hadn’t realised I was holding in till I let it out, taking me away from things in a way that allowed me to see them in a new way. Nothing is magically fixed, and coming home I could feel the weight of a million things settle back down on my shoulders, which made me a little sad, but time away at least gave me some perspective on what that weight is and what lifts it.

Sea air lifts it.

Beautiful views and early nights and SPACE lifts it. Having Ant around every day to share the load and juggle Kai’s needs lift it more than anything.

But I don’t get the luxury of those things every day. I have to leave those things behind.

But there are some things I can take home with me.

I think, rather revealing for me, time away from the computer helped. I think I began to see what a huge obligation all this feels to me sometimes. Writing, networking, connecting, maintaining those networks through an online ‘presence’, tireless and endlessly driven, while my real-world self wears out and down.

I want to be that person, who fills the world with her presence, endless comments, endless support, endless ideas and participation.

But I am only me. I am small and tired and a little confused with life.

I can’t be everything to everyone.

And I think in the space I began to see what it is I want.

I think I began to see what is important, and what isn’t. And how the way I think about things plays a huge part in how good life is that day, or how good life isn’t. And I think I need to go away and think about that.

I need to think about balance, and about dreams, and about what makes me happy.

So I’m going to be a bit absent for a while, while I figure it out.

I’ll check back in soon x

P.S. Writing Workshop will be back next week, I promise.

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  • http://kicami-alythebean.blogspot.com Aly

    Although you have been missed, your health and family come first Josie.Take care x

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  • http://clareybabble.blogspot.com clareybabble

    I felt much like you do a few months ago. Real life took over and I had a natural break from blogging. But even when I had time I couldn't think of what to write! Now I feel refreshed and I'm balancing all the things I love to do much more effectively…with a little less Facebook ;)
    Oh and I'm looking forward to the Writing Workshop as I'd just popped by to take part :)

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  • http://clareybabble.blogspot.com clareybabble

    I felt much like you do a few months ago. Real life took over and I had a natural break from blogging. But even when I had time I couldn't think of what to write! Now I feel refreshed and I'm balancing all the things I love to do much more effectively…with a little less Facebook ;)
    Oh and I'm looking forward to the Writing Workshop as I'd just popped by to take part :)

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  • http://twitter.com/newdaynewlesson @newdaynewlesson

    We all need to time and a clear head e very once in a while.

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  • http://intensedebate.com/profiles/isadori isadori

    I know what you mean about time away from the computer. On a smaller scale, I know I enjoy my time with my boy so much more when we're playing upstairs – downstairs the laptop is just sitting there, calling me to turn it on and check my mail, forums, favourite blogs etc etc. I think it's an addiction – it's so hard to find the balance but I hope you can :-)

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  • http://intensedebate.com/profiles/isadori isadori

    I know what you mean about time away from the computer. On a smaller scale, I know I enjoy my time with my boy so much more when we're playing upstairs – downstairs the laptop is just sitting there, calling me to turn it on and check my mail, forums, favourite blogs etc etc. I think it's an addiction – it's so hard to find the balance but I hope you can :-)

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  • http://intensedebate.com/profiles/isadori isadori

    I know what you mean about time away from the computer. On a smaller scale, I know I enjoy my time with my boy so much more when we're playing upstairs – downstairs the laptop is just sitting there, calling me to turn it on and check my mail, forums, favourite blogs etc etc. I think it's an addiction – it's so hard to find the balance but I hope you can :-)

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  • http://www.gone-back-south.blogspot.com Gone Back South

    Sounds like you're having a pensive moment. Enjoy your quiet thoughts, I'll look forward to reading you when you get back.

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  • http://bellejoie.com/ Annie

    I'm glad you had a nice time away – we all need a break once in awhile. I just returned from a week hiatus… it was so needed. :) I appreciate all that you do with your blog and the wonderful community you have created through the Writer's Workshop. Thank you!!!!

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