A very honest and deeply moving post. I hope that writing this has also helped a wee bit.
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A very honest post. I’ve been there… and all I can say is it does one day pass… they do one day sleep… sometimes motherhood is not fun… but over and over they melt your heart again.
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Don’t *ever* think you are alone with those thoughts and those feelings. Being a parent is the hardest, most exhausting and emotionally draining thing any of us will ever do xx
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You took me right back to countless dark, cold winter mornings, me resentfully sitting with which ever small child it happened to be at the time, waiting for Cbeebies to start. There were times I hated them, but it does pass, painfully slowly and they do sleep better as they get older.
I couldn’t sleep with mine, no matter how many times I had to get up in the night to stroke and pat them back to sleep or feed them, I still preferred to have my own space for the all too brief periods of sleep in between the cold sojourns in their room.
Early waking is miserable in winter. Thinking of you.
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Beautifully written and painfully honest. I applaud you for putting into words those feelings that many parents would never even admit to themselves they have.
Dads go there too. And those feelings can still surface when the kids are much older, although often for different reasons.
I hope that Kai soon knows that sleep ISN’T for the weak, and lets both of you have the slumber you so desperately need.
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you somehow manage to write exactly how i feel sometimes, i feel enormous guilt when i wish imogen wasnt there just for an hour of peace. i suppose thats what motherhood is, a rollacoaster of feelings and emotions, good and bad. the bad times make us appreciate the good times even more xxx
Still in utter awe of your patience and inner strength with the never-ending ‘wide-awake-Bear issue’. You are a wonderful, brilliant Mummy Bear and I wholeheartedly salute you, my love XXX
Which mother couldn’t relate to this? Good thing biology invented unconditional love. Shame it didn’t also invent a special button to press whenever sleep deprivation kicks in.
So amazingly and honestly written. And you are most definitely not alone, with any of those emotions. We are all human, and sometimes that’s just so difficult to cope with.
Guilt. A Mom’s Best Friend.
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Awesomeness! Wow..that was such a long time ago for me but that brought it all front and center! Nice job! I’m sorry I can’t tell you it get’s better. I eventually settled for longing for the time when they left home. One never has left home for long, and the menopause keeps me from sleeping like I dreamt of for years, but I remain hopeful. I love your writing and will try to subscribe.
I think we have all been here. Guilt just makes us inarticulate and tongue-tied.
Thank you for articulating this for me.
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I remember the line from the song, “no one ever said it was easy… no one ever said it would be so hard”.
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I know how you feel. Being a parent is the hardest thing you’ll ever do and the most amazing too. Hope you get a bit more sleep tonight x
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Josie – what an amazing way with words you have.
Nothing I can write here even comes close but will be thinking of you tonight as I battle to settle both of mine who are under the weather
Sleep deprivation is barbaric, hope little man recovers soon.
Beautiful, Josie, and you must now know that you are not alone.
Guilt hits me too when I think “Shit, you really are here forever, aren’t you?” or “That holiday, that complete break away from you isn’t ever going to happen, is it, My Darling?”
Thank you so much. Motherhood has to be the hardest, most wonderful job we’ve all ever done xxx
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For teh longest time I would watch my little girl sleeping and feel the huge weight of guilt on my shoulders because she looked so peaceful and gorgeous and yet during the day I would have my head in my hands wondering how the hell to handle her.
As one who has been through it, it will pass. It never feels like it will, but rest assured that day will come! x
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:::hugs::: Josie, I remember those days well! There’s nothing like the way the little fingers can call straight to your heart and pull you out of it though. . . =)
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Josie, all I can say – is it does get better (in this way) your challenges as a mum simply shift. As a mum to a 19 yr old, a 6 yr old and a couple in between – you just learn what you already know – sleep is for the weak!
xx
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